Cos I’m not.
But then I am. But then I’m not.
I realised this today, that my level of coping, fluctuates a lot.
Right now I’m coming off the back of the entire family (including myself) being sick with head colds. My 3 year old was the last to be hit by the bug and has spent the last three nights in our bed.
Standard practice for a sick kid, right?
Except this morning when he woke he was covered in a rash and he said it was itchy. So I took him to the GP and low and behold, he has scarlett fever.
Yes this is 2016 and not 1916 but apparently it still exists.
So right now I’m in a state of not coping. It kind of feels like you’re holding your breath underwater only you don’t realise you’re doing it and it’s only when you completely explode and you get “that look” from one of your children, you know the look I’m talking about, the look of disappointment, that you actually realise that you’re not coping.
You also talk in very long sentences. Soz xx
And for some reason, it doesn’t come easily for me to say, or type, that I’m not coping. Which is crap, don’t you think?
Because on the whole I think I’m really good at keeping it real, but for some reason I struggle with admitting that I’m not coping. But that’s reality. That’s life. Sometimes we don’t cope, and it’s not a sign of weakness, but even if it is, feeling weak is ok too.
Otherwise, what am I teaching my kids? That you have to “tough it out” even if you’re struggling? What kind of message does that send them?
I’d much rather them know that you’re totally, absolutely allowed to say you’re not coping, and it doesn’t mean you’re a failure or less of a person. It means you’re human.
It also means you’re more likely to get through the “not coping” phases, because talking helps, a lot.
So that’s me today. Putting my hand up and saying, I’m not coping. I know things will turn around soon, and I will be coping again, but today I’m going to let go of that breath.
I hope you feel like you can let go of yours too, if you need to.
This is not a sponsored post but if you feel like you’re not coping or you just need some extra support, COPE is a fantastic organisation. Just saying, if you need it, it’s there. Love you mummas xxx