Hi, I’m Erin, and I’m a sleep failure.
I am. Don’t try and convince me otherwise.
You see I have a child, sometimes two children, who frequently wake during the night.
They aren’t babies, so I can’t use that excuse.
They are four years old and nearly six years old.
You see, I am a failure.
It wasn’t always like this. Gus our first born used to be an amazing sleeper. He would go down at 7pm and sleep through till 7am (ok 6.30am, ok 6am) most mornings, and this went on for years.
Then along came his brother Eddie and a more challenging sleeper I am yet to meet. I’m convinced he hates sleep, in fact he’s told me more than once that he does.
And to be brutally honest, I don’t know what to do anymore.
We moved him in with Gus when he was just 20 months old in the hope it might soothe him to know someone was nearby, but all it has really done is disrupt Gus’ sleep and in turn create bad sleeping habits for him too.
Epic failure. Majorly epic failure!!
On average my children wake 3 times a night. Sometimes it’s less (like 2) or sometimes it is so much more (say 10-15).
I have tried every night light, every routine, every snuggly toy . I have tried co-sleeping and it is just not for me (don’t shoot, but I like sleeping without a toe jammed up my nostril or being booted in my butt repeatedly). I have tried rewards and bribes and a few too many threats (you will never play with your Lego again if you don’t sleep in your own bed) but nothing works.
And I’m so very, very, very tired.
I have come to terms with the fact he is never going to love sleep, unlike Gus who is completely feral after the nights he wakes, Eddie carries on like business as usual. He can survive on broken sleep, or at least has learned to.
Me on the other hand, can not.
Especially seeing as in the next ten weeks, another sleep stealing bundle of joy will enter our world and frankly I don’t know how much sleep I have left for this newest thief to nab.
So I’m waving the white flag. I surrender. I feel like I’ve failed as a mother, and I don’t know what else to do.
Or say. Because, tired. So very, very tired.
Do you have a child who hates sleep? Has anything worked for you?